or jewelry, or shoes. I had a wardrobe that would be the envy of any girl my age.

This went on for years. There were no problems that arose from time to time that weren't solved, and my desire and "need" to be a girl were so strong that I chose the sacrifice the al- ternatives. I particularly enjoyed the summer months which the family spent at the seashore as I was able to spend 5 of every 7 days as a girl. I became a good dancer and was popular with the boys I went out with. Inasmuch as I was now tall (5'7", and with heels about 5'10") I started dating only boys taller than myself. On occasion when I met a nice boy who was not too tall I wore flats. These taller boys were generally older than I and I found I had a new problem--their aggressiveness. I started buying and wearing on my dates only high neckline dresses and a panty girdle, as the fellows sure loved to smooch and pet and parking on a date was taken as an expected procedure. I was considered by everyone as a pretty girl and enjoyed being told

The fall after graduation from high school, meant my enrol ment in college. Even though I wanted to continue in the same pattern as previously, I found that I wasn't able due to the amount of time I had to spend on my school work Saturdays however, were devoted to my usual procedures. Even though I attempted to discourage friendships, I found that I was occas- ionally drawn into some social event. Most of the fellows shied away from me because of my long hair long finger nals and effeminate maniers, however, the girls seemed fascinated. I was informed by one fellow, who befriended me that the talk around the campus was that I was "queer" to which I replied that I was not and told him my story. He tried convincing me how wrong I was and that I should cut my hair short trim my nails and attempt to act more manly I listened to but gnor d his advice until one evening I was approached and propos tioned by the town s most notorious homo-sexual. I then de ed that I had to adhere to tradition and therefore had my hair cut and trimmed my finger nails and started dating. I had no trouble whatsoever in getting dates even with the most popular girls on the campus-and found that the reason was curiosity and I had quite a reputation. I found most of the girls I dated